A few days ago my parents came for a visit. I invited them over to discuss some changes happening in my life and wanted support and understanding during a stressful time. My father and I are alike in many aspects of our personality. This typically is a wonderful thing that I feel honored to possess. In the case of this visit, maybe not so much.
How many times have you responded to something and when you looked back you instantly regretted it? This was one of those times. This post is a direct reflection of why I started this blog. When faced with adversity, we as humans tend to exaggerate our responses. I know I do. More often than I would like to admit. I am disappointed with myself and even worse, my father is disappointed. No matter what age you are, this is never a good feeling.
I do much better writing things down then speaking them. A letter between my father and I mended fences today. I am blessed to have his forgiveness and I am ready to move beyond our indiscretions. In light of all this, my amazing mother pointed out a verse that related directly to what was happening. This is one I know well. Philippians 4:6-7. Don’t worry about anything;instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
I find it miraculous that no matter what has transpired in your life, there is always an answer within God’s word. We must choose to be faithful and obedient to what God has asked of us. Respect is an earned quality. Remember not to take it for granted. Dear Lord, thank you for the wonderful people in my life. Help me to show gratitude and form an open mind whenever faced with adversity. Amen.
Within the past several months my husband and I have been discussing different schooling options for our daughter. In her early years she was attending our local public school. By second grade she had been bullied enough for her to begin developing an anxiety disorder. We pulled her from public school and she has since been enrolled in a local private school. To say that this decision was one from God is truly an understatement. She excels academically and finally made some true friends. So what is the matter?
Those of you who are familiar with private schools may know the tuition cost can be extravagant. My husband and I do not make a lot of money. Somehow though, God has provided what we need to be able to support our daughter in this school. I am beyond amazed with what the Lord has blessed us with.
With her growing up and entering middle school, we find ourselves at another crossroad. Unfortunately her anxiety has begun to increase in its seriousness. We as a family are struggling with tuition costs, alternating work shifts, and all of the other stresses of life. How do you balance it all? With complete sincerity, we have not balanced anything.
There are many times in life where we want a quick solution to a difficult problem. Patience is something I do not easily possess. But, no matter what the circumstance, the Lord never lets me down. It always works itself out and yet here I am feeling defeated. Worry is such a wasteful emotion.
By God making us be patient with decisions on our daughters school it has opened up lines of communication with my husband that had not been there in years. God has taken a challenging situation and made it into a life changing lesson. What are you facing in your life? Have you been able to remain patient? The funny thing about our God is that solutions are not on our schedule, but rather on his. Choose the path of the righteous and you will never be lost.
I am confident that we will be able to find the right answer for our daughter and her schooling. Not because we will have made the choice ourselves, but because I know God will eventually show us the best path to take.
It has been some time that I actually made a New Years resolution. At some point I decided if there was something I truly needed or wanted to change, then I should not wait until Januray 1st to make it happen. With this being said, there is still a desire for a fresh start with every new year.
When the three of us sat down to dinner tonight I asked what everyone had decided to change for the new year. My husband stated he wished to be more thoughtful. He wants to take a moment to think before he speaks. This is amazing news and I definitely rejoiced to the Lord when he confessed this tonight. I will continue to pray for his spiritual growth. My daughter, 10, still does not grasp the concept, but I know there are many great things she will accomplish as she always does. I am beyond blessed.
Even though I do not make resolutions, there is still something I resolve to do this year and all the years after. This is to let go. Let go of the worries, the stress, and the panic of the unknown. I have always been one to put the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am ready to brush them off and feel free to trust in the Lord. No matter what circumstance comes our way, it never fails that God prevails. I could immerse myself with anxiety and in the end it always works out. So why is it so hard to fall at God’s feet? Faith is a special thing. Either we can let the devil fill our heads with doubt or we can choose to rise above and free fall into the Lord’s grace. From now on, I am choosing to fly! Happy New Year!