Adversity

A few days ago my parents came for a visit. I invited them over to discuss some changes happening in my life and wanted support and understanding during a stressful time. My father and I are alike in many aspects of our personality. This typically is a wonderful thing that I feel honored to possess. In the case of this visit, maybe not so much.

How many times have you responded to something and when you looked back you instantly regretted it? This was one of those times. This post is a direct reflection of why I started this blog. When faced with adversity, we as humans tend to exaggerate our responses. I know I do. More often than I would like to admit. I am disappointed with myself and even worse, my father is disappointed. No matter what age you are, this is never a good feeling.

I do much better writing things down then speaking them. A letter between my father and I mended fences today. I am blessed to have his forgiveness and I am ready to move beyond our indiscretions. In light of all this, my amazing mother pointed out a verse that related directly to what was happening. This is one I know well. Philippians 4:6-7. Don’t worry about anything;instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

I find it miraculous that no matter what has transpired in your life, there is always an answer within God’s word.  We must choose to be faithful and obedient to what God has asked of us. Respect is an earned quality. Remember not to take it for granted. Dear Lord, thank you for the wonderful people in my life. Help me to show gratitude and form an open mind whenever faced with adversity. Amen.

 

 

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Patience

Within the past several months my husband and I have been discussing different schooling options for our daughter. In her early years she was attending our local public school. By second grade she had been bullied enough for her to begin developing an anxiety disorder. We pulled her from public school and she has since been enrolled in a local private school. To say that this decision was one from God is truly an understatement. She excels academically and finally made some true friends. So what is the matter?

Those of you who are familiar with private schools may know the tuition cost can be extravagant. My husband and I do not make a lot of money. Somehow though, God has provided what we need to be able to support our daughter in this school. I am beyond amazed with what the Lord has blessed us with.

With her growing up and entering middle school, we find ourselves at another crossroad. Unfortunately her anxiety has begun to increase in its seriousness. We as a family are struggling with tuition costs, alternating work shifts,  and all of the other stresses of life. How do you balance it all? With complete sincerity, we have not balanced anything.

There are many times in life where we want a quick solution to a difficult problem. Patience is something I do not easily possess. But, no matter what the circumstance, the Lord never lets me down. It always works itself out and yet here I am feeling defeated. Worry is such a wasteful emotion.

By God making us be patient with decisions on our daughters school it has opened up lines of communication with my husband that had not been there in years. God has taken a challenging situation and made it into a life changing lesson. What are you facing in your life? Have you been able to remain patient? The funny thing about our God is that solutions are not on our schedule, but rather on his. Choose the path of the righteous and you will never be lost.

I am confident that we will be able to find the right answer for our daughter and her schooling. Not because we will have made the choice ourselves, but because I know God will eventually show us the best path to take.

Resolutions

It has been some time that I actually made a New Years resolution. At some point I decided if there was something I truly needed or wanted to change, then I should not wait until Januray 1st to make it happen. With this being said, there is still a desire for a fresh start with every new year.

When the three of us sat down to dinner tonight I asked what everyone had decided to change for the new year. My husband stated he wished to be more thoughtful. He wants to take a moment to think before he speaks. This is amazing news and I definitely rejoiced to the Lord when he confessed this tonight. I will continue to pray for his spiritual growth. My daughter, 10, still does not grasp the concept, but I know there are many great things she will accomplish as she always does. I am beyond blessed.

Even though I do not make resolutions, there is still something I resolve to do this year and all the years after. This is to let go. Let go of the worries, the stress, and the panic of the unknown. I have always been one to put the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am ready to brush them off and feel free to trust in the Lord. No matter what circumstance comes our way, it never fails that God prevails. I could immerse myself with anxiety and in the end it always works out. So why is it so hard to fall at God’s feet? Faith is a special thing. Either we can let the devil fill our heads with doubt or we can choose to rise above and free fall into the Lord’s grace. From now on, I am choosing to fly! Happy New Year!

The Journey

Every year during the holiday season, I compose a poem for my friends and family. It gives me a chance to look back at the year I had and write down some form of reflection. Most of the poems are about finding the blessings that may be hidden from ourselves. We tend to focus on the negative. I call this the devils work.

This is why I chose to begin this blog. I too was getting drawn into the struggles I faced all the time instead of finding a way to learn from them and grow in Christ. I have found that it is not about the battle with the devil. It is more about choosing not to fight at all. Trusting in the Lord and having patience is the key. This is not to say it is not difficult to let go. Most things in life that are worth achieving are not easy to obtain.

Yesterday, being able to share in the celebration of Christ and all that He selflessly sacrificed for you and me, was exhaulting. My family has faced many sacrifices themselves. It was unknown if they would even be able to join us for the holiday. I find it funny that we cannot give it all to God to handle. Worry is such a wasteful emotion. In the end if He wishes it to be, then it shall be. This time I chose to let it go and lo and behold my family was free to be with us for Christmas day.

I am sharing this today to give you all a chance to experience what it feels like to give in to God. Let the weight on your shoulders be lifted high into the heavens. Let your worries be cast away. All that will be left is joy in your heart, patience in your soul, and spirit in your mind. Remember it is not about obtaining your goal, it is about living in and experiencing the journey to get there.

Budget Friendly

Budget. That dreaded word that defines spending only what you need and not what you want. I don’t know about you, but no matter how much money we make in our family, we always walk away with less than ample savings. Why is this? We made our bills on less income so why wouldn’t we be banking the surplus?

My simple answer? We all tend to live above our means. So no matter your paycheck, we still spend more than we need to. Material possessions still mean more to us as a civilization than they should.

When my husband and I were bringing home just enough money to get by, I felt as though we lived bigger than we ever had before. Seems odd, but in reflection I understand why that was. It forced us to pay attention to everything we bought making those items more valuable to us. It allowed us to be more creative and work harder to accomplish something we could have just spent the money on.

I long to go back to that time. I feel God tests us constantly to see how we will withstand the troubled times. During the simple times, humanity is selfish. One day I hope your go back to the harder times to test my faith in God and believe with every beat of my soul that He will carry me through it. Allowing myself to become closer to Him and my family by appreciating the blessings I am surrounded with each and every day.

More money, more problems? I think so. Simplicity is neglected in this world. I, on the other hand, long for it to return.

What is it about kid movies?

My daughter and I like to watch movies. This is no secret to anyone close to us. I don’t know what it is about kid’s movies that just puts me in an awesome mood. We watch movies every second we have. We go to the theatre as soon as a movie comes out, we buy the movie as soon as it’s released on dvd/blu ray, and we watch Netflix like it is going out of style.

Why? What is it about these movies that creates such special vibes? Today I decided to really figure out the why behind my good feelings.

I truly believe God puts things in our life for reasons beyond our comprehension. I know what you are thinking. Movies though? Really? Yes. As trivial as it seems, no matter the source, if it uplifts your spirit then it is important.

Maybe it is the laughter or the escape from everyday responsibilty. I know for a fact it is the quality time I get to spend with my daughter. Whatever the case, all that comes from watching these movies is joy. Do you have something in your life that does this for you? Trivial or not. This is just a simple form of God’s amazing intervention! Find yours and run with it!

Simply “Ugh.”

Ugh. Recently this has been the phrase of choice in my family. We are having chicken for dinner, ugh. You need to start homework, ugh. The laundry needs put away, ugh. You get the point.

Today as my 10 year old daughter and I were driving home from church, we had on a Christmas station. Tis the season and all. Naturally, as many would, I start singing. “All I Want For Christmas Is You”. Now I don’t claim to be Mariah Carey, but I do know I can carry a tune. Not 30 seconds into the song I hear, “ugh!”. I ask her, what is the problem? I get only a look of pure disgust and a grunt. My response? Fine. Then I proceeded to turn the radio off completely, driving the next 30 minutes in silence.

So I ask myself. Was that the right choice? I know that as a human I am a sinner. I never claim to be perfect in any sense of the word. This was just one of millions of examples. So I ask God for forgiveness and guidance.

Every day there are countless numbers of opportunity to lean on God. Choosing the right path is not an easy feat. But asking God to guide you is. I find myself hesitant to speak to Him for fear my concern could not possibly be important enough to bother Him for. This is such the wrong way to think.

God wants us to turn to Him for everything life throws at us. To trust that He has all the answers. We typically do not get explanations of why life plays out a certain way. It is up to us to let go of the why and simply keep the faith.

As for the “ughs” life throws at us? Maybe we just replace them with an Amen. God:1 Humans:0

Inspiration

Inspiration comes to us in many different forms. Today I recieved what I believe was a divine intervention. It was clear to me that I needed to reflect on the responses I have to life. God has spoken to me today through an amazing maze of spiritual beings. Today is the beginning of stories I have had and will have to share. Share with not only all of you, but for myself.

The journey has begun. Today I walk with my creator, my salvation, my light, and my truth. I pray that you have the desire to follow in my footsteps.